it's a thing.. it's happening

i looked down and i saw my hair moved as my heartbeat 

i thought i'm going to die 

it's not they shocked me 

it's not easy to get shocked of anyone for me 

i mean i could tell who they're at the begining 

i know who to trust 

but my head gone crazy like what elso could happen

it's like weak secound that i had 

but like they couldn't anyways 

 but still .. what if  they could 

?would they gone that far 

how long would it take to get rid of me 

i bet it wouldn't take that long 

i mean i'm tired i would run away i have the chance

but not this one 

i mean a chance that it could makes thing better

this one is much worst
it's getting worst
i hate him
i've never imagine that i would hate him that much
not anyone
i've been someone also
i don't want to know me
movies and my favorite song not working anymore
i don't have spical thing would make me feel better anymore
everything is black and grey
i hate writing this
i hate telling myself "it's a thing.. it's happening".t