it's a thing.. it's happening

i looked down and i saw my hair moved as my heartbeat 

i thought i'm going to die 

it's not they shocked me 

it's not easy to get shocked of anyone for me 

i mean i could tell who they're at the begining 

i know who to trust 

but my head gone crazy like what elso could happen

it's like weak secound that i had 

but like they couldn't anyways 

 but still .. what if  they could 

?would they gone that far 

how long would it take to get rid of me 

i bet it wouldn't take that long 

i mean i'm tired i would run away i have the chance

but not this one 

i mean a chance that it could makes thing better

this one is much worst
it's getting worst
i hate him
i've never imagine that i would hate him that much
not anyone
i've been someone also
i don't want to know me
movies and my favorite song not working anymore
i don't have spical thing would make me feel better anymore
everything is black and grey
i hate writing this
i hate telling myself "it's a thing.. it's happening".t

you do too

i love you 

i love the fact that you need me 

but i am so sad seeing you being weak

i cant help it you telling me that i can do something about it 

i would lose my life for it 

i don't want you to cry 

i am so mad that you cried

you are my strength 

i would lose my life but not giving up being me 

you're now asking me to not be myself

you show me a different person 

not who i use to 

a weak hopeless a little selfish 

you've always being the opposite of that 

i know it's hard to understand me 

so do i 

it's hard for me to seeing you talking like that 

you would care what people say 

 i don't 

i already know the real them 

maybe you're a little positive about people 

but i am not

but after all i have nothing but you 

we'll get over it 

it's okay

you voice in my head saying that you get enough of me 

but i  still have a hope that you didn't mean it 

 i mean i am so sure you didn't mean it 

i love you 

no matter what you would say ..i know you do too